Confession

I miss planning the wedding.  There, I said (typed) it.  I planned the wedding for a long time...most girls plan their hypothetical wedding for years and there was some of that but I planned our wedding for about a year or so.  So it was a huge part of my life, what I thought about and planned for and worried about and stressed over.  I miss flipping through bridal magazines for inspiration, going to bridal fairs, working out the budget, checking things off my lists, picking flowers, working out details and all of it.  I feel a little lost because I don't have anything to plan for right now.  Besides the wedding, there was the move (which we actually didn't do much planning for, we kind of just winged it) and now that we are to in Mass I feel the need to plan something to fill the void.  Don't get me wrong, I'm glad the wedding is over and although there were a few things that I didn't get done and even fewer things I would do differently if I could do it again, I am happy that we are (finally!) married and on to this next chapter of our lives.

I think things will get better once I am working and there is purpose to my days and I have a schedule and can get in to a routine.  In the meantime, I am trying to stay busy...I've done some meal planning at least and am trying to cook at home.  We still have a trip to UT to plan as well as when/how we are going to get the rest of our stuff out here.  For a minute I thought maybe we should just go ahead and try to have a baby just so I could have something to plan for...I really need a job!

So it's a good thing I had a great interview this week with a family I really like.  We are going to try things out for a couple of days next week to make sure it's a good fit.  I will keep you all posted-hopefully next week I will be employed again and I can stop feeling like such a crazy person.