sleepless nights

So the last couple of weeks I've been on a strange sleeping schedule. I think it started because I was having a hard time sleeping in general...I would toss and turn every night, mostly thinking about all the things I needed to be doing. Then I went to Vegas for my bachelorette party and was up all night for 3 nights in a row and slept a few hours each morning. I've somehow stayed on that schedule this week. I go to bed around 4:00am and sleep for a few hours and then I wake up and remember I have a lot to do so I can't go back to sleep.

Anyway, I should probably try to get back on a regular sleep schedule...maybe I'll go to bed at 2:00am tonight and go to bed a little earlier each night until the wedding.

I'm getting married in 7 days! Some days I feel like I've been waiting forever and others I feel like being engaged has gone by super fast and I can't believe the wedding is almost here. I'm basically ready, just a few last small things to do. We are doing the food ourselves, so things will get crazy for 2 days before the wedding preparing everything. I think it's going to turn out great though and I'm super excited. I've had a couple of fun showers and tomorrow I have one more with John's family, which will also be fun.

The bigger project I'm working on is packing. Oh the joys of packing. Not really, of course. Luckily, most of my stuff has been in storage this last year while I have been living with Matt and Debi, so I don't have as much to do for this move. Except we are putting most of our stuff in storage, for now, so we can get out to MA and get a place and get settled a bit, I will get a job and then we will fly back here, pack a U-haul and take the rest of our stuff to MA. Sounds like fun, huh?

Anyway, I think the point of this late-night rambling is to put some thoughts down. Of course I have lots going on with the wedding and the move and job searching. I know everything is going to work out and I'm excited to start this new adventure with John. We were talking the other night about how the whole having a wedding thing almost seems like just a formality, which it is, but I hope it is more than that. I hope our wedding day is very special and that we enjoy the day and appreciate the chance we have to celebrate with family and friends.

So this week I am reflecting on my life and how things have been these last 30 years leading up to now and how excited I am for this new chapter of my life. I've waited longer than some to get married, and I loved my single life and all of the great things I've been able to do. On the other hand, I could not be happier with the way things are going in my life now. I know John is the right person for me to marry. He is my best friend, he is kind and loving and he makes me laugh, he supports me and encourages me to be my best, he is driven and we want to be successful together, he loves me, and we are a great team. I am so lucky that we found each other. We have definitely had some bumps along the way, but we are so ready now to be married and continue on this adventure together.

So let the count down begin! 7 days!