This week is going by too fast and I have so much to do. My work schedule is always so unpredictable, so that doesn't help. Moving sucks, and even though I seem to do it very often, I really hate moving. I have already done a lot, but still feel like I'm going to be up very late Thursday night trying to finish...I have to work tomorrow night until 10 so the plan is to get up in the morning at have at least 4 hours of good packing and cleaning time before I have to be to work at 1:00. I'm so bad at mornings though. Sigh.
Anyway, this whole process is super emotional for me...I've already done a lot of crying and I'm not going to get through typing this without crying some more. I love this apartment, I love my location, I love my landlord and I love my garden. I have definitely second-guessed my decision to move, but I do still feel like I made the right choice. I am so excited to live with Matt and his family and to get to spend more time with Leah and Heidi. I am so grateful to have such a loving and supportive family that is willing to let me stay with them. The whole goal of this move is to be able to get ahead financially in life and to be able to save money for some future expenses I plan to have in the next year or so. I do still hope to find a job in Logan, but I am getting more and more discouraged about all that and will probably just stay in my job as long as I can and hope the job market picks up a bit in a few months. I hate to be so motivated by money, but that is just the reality of my life right now.
This week has been extra hard because John is in Amsterdam, where he has been most of this month. He had to come back to go to some meetings in Mass and then flew in to SLC for a whole 14 hours before flying back to Amsterdam. He doesn't have internet at his hotel this week, and he is basically working 16 hours a day anyway, so our communication is really limited. It is so hard not to have my best friend to talk to and encourage me this week when I am so emotional and slightly stressed about this big change I am making in my life.
Ok, enough whining. There is just so much going through my head right now, and I just need to stay focused on my goals and for this week, the task of moving. I am heading to Idaho Fri afternoon for my cousin's wedding, so if I don't get everything done, I will have to miss the trip and I would be even more sad about that...so at least I have some extra motivation.
2 comments:
That's stinks that you have to leave your awesome apartment and garden. Good luck with getting everything done and moving. Just think about the wise words of Dave Ramsey. "Live like no one else now, so you can live like no one else later." I'm sure I'll your sacrifices will pay off.
Ugh, moving... I feel your pain.
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